say what ya need to say...

I wish I had a really funny story from today that I could tell, but for once I don't. All I did today was wake up sleep-deprived, go to the gym, work, run some errands, and come home. I am suddenly super restless just being here and I think I'm gonna take a little road trip down to Ohio this week because as I was so brutally reminded yesterday, I have no friends up here. I had a really long talk today with one of my favorite aunts and it really put some things into perspective for me. Sometimes it's just nice to know that there is someone who has been through the same things I am going through right now.

I was also reminded in that last 24 hours that I have the greatest siblings ever and a bff who is the perfect listener, so thanks. Also, thanks to remix for reminding me how much I don't miss desperately finding school projects that involve the smallest amount of effort to get a passing grade. Good luck with your Nigerian ginger drink. Now the only thing I am doing desperately is trying to find a new job and it's just so much harder than I thought it would be. Some days, it's easy to be patient and prayerful, but especially lately it's been so frustrating. Fortunately, I have running to get that stress out of my system. The Striders Saturday Classic 10 Mile Race in Grand Rapids is this Saturday. GET EXCITED. A bunch of my teammates are going and it should be a pretty good day. I'm feeling pretty healthy and pain-free the past few days which has been a huge blessing.

More to the point, lately I feel like there is something that is keeping me from saying all the things I want to say and need to say. Mostly, I feel like I can't find the right words to explain what I feel. I wish I could speak as well as I can write, but hopefully the people in my life who need to hear those words know me and know my heart well enough to hear the things I don't say along with the things that I do say. It is what it is, and 4:45 is gonna be here way too soon and I have a speed workout to look forward to, so I'm seriously thinking about calling it a night.